Amazing

This heat is killing me! It has been around 100 degrees and will stay so for the next 3 days. I think I can handle it, but it sure makes my sweat-dripping kiddos really cranky. Has anyone else had a problem with their kids sleeping when it's really hot? (We have a window unit and the room is around 70 degrees, so it's not bad at night). It seems like since Abigail has turned 3, she is testing all of her abilities. She has been climbing more, jumping more and pushing my buttons more. Hopefully it is not because she is 3, but because she is hot. I titled this post "Amazing" because of God's timing. When I'm feeling selfish and selfish and more selfish, God reminds me that it is not my life to live. Here on earth, I am to serve my husband and children and the better job of that I do, the better I will be at serving God. This life is short and I need to do a lot to assure God is given his glory while I am here. It is so hard to give myself up daily, hourly even. The things I want to do best (like be an amazing mom and wife) distract me from needing God to do them. I have to constantly reexamine my life and my mentality to remember It Is Not My Life. I need God every step of the way so He gets the ultimate glory. I know this. I type this. I think it. Sometimes it's just so stinkin' hard to live it. I am so selfish, but I should be so grateful. Why do I want time to myself? Maybe God is really working on my patience and compassion so much that I need to give up all of my time in the day. Why do I want to decorate my home more? My house is gorgeous. I have more than I need, I am protected from the elements, we have fun in our house. Why would I need to do anything more to my home? This makes me wonder how am I supposed to live in this world without messing up God's will for me?

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